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the winds blow
03:00
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i cannot know how the wind is gonna blow
but i know it's gonna blow
i know the earth is going to turn
and the clouds are going to cover the face of the sun
and the lovers are going to come undone
but i know this also
i know this too
i know that no matter how the winds blow, the storms go, the hills roll
no matter how the winds blow i know i will love you
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2. |
it's a shame
03:21
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it's a shame i had to be born in this body
it's a shame i had to get shamed
it's a pity that a child so a pretty had to be born
it's a shame that he touched me
it's a shame that i am born
but it's done now
it is done and it is over
and i am here waiting for my final form
i am shame
i am guilt and ugly
i am a star shaking like a leaf
it is a hard belief to shake
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3. |
garden variety
01:57
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don't envy me
my feelings are common
they are plain and simple
too simple in fact to control
i am common
i am garden variety
there are a thousand people like me
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4. |
only hell
02:36
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the people here are angels
the staff here are seraphim
and i am a demon
a devil
a rebel
the people are angels
the person they lay their eyes upon
is a creature that only hell could spawn
hell could spawn
before you run in fear
remember why i'm here
i'm here for you
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5. |
home less
02:06
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there are moments in the snow
where the sun casts its pallid glow
upon the cheek of the earth
when i start to know where i should go
i don't have a home
there is nowhere left to go
there is nowhere left to go
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6. |
dosey doe
02:34
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ok, doc
i'll give it another try
i really don't think the dosage will stop me from crying
but if you say so
i will dosey doe for you
whenever i go off my meds
which, don't worry, i haven't done recently
things go wrong for me
but i cannot tell you have any idea
what the effects are on me, really
i don't feel like i'm getting better
i know i must be getting better
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7. |
new kind of girl
02:20
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oh, it's a miracle
a waking miracle
there's a girl
a new kind of girl
a girl i have not yet met
and i laid eyes upon her
as she might one day lie her hands upon my tender breast
there's still a fucking girl
there's still a breast
i do my best to contain myself
when there is a girl and she is in my eyes
cuz surprise
she's making feel gay
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8. |
i need you
02:36
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if i am not loved
if i am not taken care of
i tend to die
i tend to need tending
i am neverending
i need you
i can't live without your touch and your loveliness
that's not romantic, that's fucked up
that is on me and not on love
i need you
because there's not enough of me to go around
there's nowhere to look where i might be found
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9. |
bitch // slut
03:28
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don't come for me if you haven't lived like me
don't come for me if you haven't lived like me
because you haven't seen nothin' yet
you haven't seen nothin' yet
i bet you wouldn't last a minute
if every minute of your life leading up to that minute
was mine and not yours
that's what i think
and i think i am not a shrink but i can shimmer
and get you something to drink
i can take care of anyone like you, you little bitch
but i can't, or i won't
or maybe more neutrally i just don't take care of me
you fucking bitch
you fucking slut
why don't you go to bed?
this is my song
this is my life
you wouldn't like it in my head
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10. |
pins and needles
01:51
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when i put my head to bed
i thought i noticed you
when i put my leg to sleep
sitting on the floor
i felt your pins and needles
your pressure points
your incisions
and i felt you cut away at my joy
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11. |
sacred breakup
03:20
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there is a man in the sky
a holy ghost
and he chooses to leave me here
he has not disappeared
he merely wants to put me in my place
there is so much that he could change
i have got to accept he has moved on
i should break up with him
he is gone
if he still loved me, why would he go?
if he still loved me, wouldn't he say so?
it is sacred to break up with him
if he is not enough
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12. |
if you loved me
03:00
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if you loved me you would abandon me
like everyone should
if you loved me you would run away
and not even say goodbye
abandonment is a love language
it's a series of letters and sounds
it's a code i live by
it is the higher ground
if you loved me you would only care about yourself
if you loved me you would know that i am nothing
that i can't be loved
if you loved me
you wouldn't be here
*
this riff is stolen from j. if you're reading this, j, i love you and hope you're well <3
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13. |
i believe in me
02:08
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another day of being here
another end of the year
another sleepless night
another terror, fright
another ghost in the shell of this hell
another me
another person
i am not sure if i believe in me
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15. |
my heart starts to break
02:03
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it is time to go home
the piano goes cold
but i know there's a song for every breath i take
it won't be long till my heart starts to break
free
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